"Oh god please set my mind free".I've made my brain think more than it should be thinking and if i was been given an advice i would say yeah i'll try to relax."Oh come on tia,you still have a long journey to go.You'll find someone else who appreciate you more than you know," few words from my mum who likes to lecture just like i do.My dad was right,we do share the same DNA.After all,she is my mother.What can i say,like mother like daughter.haha.lol.I've been bringing up this matter to my mum for months!.Lucky me,she understands me a lot and we kinda share a lot of stories together especially stuffs like personal matters.Since my beloved sister is not here with us,i tend to spent most of my time with my mum now.I'll be strong and supportive in order to fight the tumour she's suffering on her optic nerve.And FYI,im not just sitting at home in fact im very busy now.Im helping waterzone business to reach their goal and aiming for the highest peak.But with a very hectic lifestyle now,i still do keep up with my social life and meet my dearest friends at night.Either we go for a movie or watch football at night untill one day my mum calls me 'jampuk'.And i was like,what? I know im not good enough in bm but whats jampuk?haha..tick tock tick tock.okay okay.Now i know what it means and im not offended.Yeah.why should i.Anyways,my life continues when i went to datin's restaurant at melawati.I went to sit for the theraphy for half an hour and *ring ring ring.there goes my replay by iyaz ringtone.It was a call from dian and we had this kind of education thingy conversation.haha.Poor her,she's stuck between her mum and dad's opinion.Well," different people have different points of view kan".Few words that i often hear from my lost loved one.pfftt.wth.I know that in fact everybody knows that.Im being too emosional maybe because i missed those moments.yeah whatever.Its weird how people lie these days,sometimes i feel like a fraud but im not.I like everything to be open and clear.woohooo,well done tia.You're on the way to a better life.Oh i wish im in one of those fairy tales story,wth.Cut the crap tia.You're starting to talk nonsense.I said goodbye and wish for the best till then i was relieved and felt better than ever.I'd consider it as the best decision at that time eventhough my heart says no.And now my head is stuck everytime i hear those songs.

Few words from the dearest:
"tia,dont cry anymore!". by shamir
"tia,i dont like to see my bestfriend hurt".by dian
"tia,i've been thorugh it and i know what it feels like".by hass
"tia,what a jerk".by ari
"tia,just say goodbye".by an
"tia,what goes around comes around".by k.mus

Yup.what a year i've been through.Now im saying goodbye and doing me best to fall asleep

curently listening to:the only exception by paramore
mood:unstable